
I played a softball game today for the first time in about 13 years and it was bizarre.
When the idea was first proposed my heart started beating so fast. Will I mess up? Will I be bad? Will I blow it for the team? So I didn't volunteer. Then the team was in a jam and needed some players, so I said I'd do it. I vowed not to tell anyone the extent of my experience and go with the whole 'under promise - over deliver' policy.
So the day before husband and I went out and threw the ball around a little and I was surprised to find that it all seemed to come back very naturally. I mean, after so many years of practices, games and techniques being drilled into my head this shouldn't really be a surprise - but it was.
What does this all tell me. Well, one thing is that I need to stop worrying about being perfect and just have fun - I could be missing out on some seriously great experiences. Two, I love to compete so much I am afraid of loosing - but what is so bad about that? And three maybe I should play more softball.
It was fun to be part of a team again, a team who actively encourages each other. Even if you do ok, they appreciate how hard you tried. And if you suck, it isn't going to kill anyone. And if you do amazing, people are really really excited about it. It seems like a great way to build relationships and friendships with people - a win win all around. Oh, and did I mention I burned 800 calories?
All-in-all I realized I am 100% competitive. I am 100% an athlete at heart, and 100% need to 'just do it'.